Hoa

cinco de mayo

2010-05-05T14:33:00.000-07:00

One month day and all that happened was an AP test...
I'm not one to form expectations but this kinda glums me out.

it's a good excuse to put our love to use babyyy I know what to do

:I

2010-04-30T18:58:00.000-07:00

Plan fail to the max and apparently everyone knows. FAILFAILFAILFAIL Oh wells, it's senior year and I frankly don't care (actually I do care hehehe but there's nothing I can do... besides, it's all worth it.)

Why do people get into fights? I used to think fights were always good in a relationship; it allowed feelings to be expressed and a stronger bond to form. But really, if you really cared about the relationship and if that person meant that much to you, you wouldn't want to make them go through crap for a fight that will eventually establish what is already obvious --- He does care about you. I tried being mad once, but after an hour, I realized my reason was really silly. Fights can immediately be resolved when you stop thinking about how you're hurting and more about what the other person is going through. You just have to be honest and understanding.

I guess I can suffer carrying bursted blood vessels around just for this.

:(

2010-04-21T20:43:00.000-07:00

A month ago, I couldn't wait for college to come. Now..not so much. I cringe just thinking about the good-bye.

:)

2010-04-11T00:15:00.000-07:00

quite smitten

wishhhh

2010-03-13T02:38:00.001-08:00

I feel like something's going to happen and that wave of panic that has been hibernating is returning back to me. I can't stand it. GOD let me go to college to escape it.

weeeee

2010-02-13T21:23:00.000-08:00

weeee Hoa does it again :D

Contemplation...

2010-01-17T22:11:00.000-08:00

Celia asked me, "Are you happy with yourself? What would you change?"

As much as I wanted to say something, I couldn't help but think that I'm what I pictured myself to be since Freshmen year. I mean, there's tons of stuff I want to change in the past, perhaps I should have made more friends instead of relying on the same three hoes all the time, but I still have time. My future is set and it's nice knowing. I would like to exercise and look good, but seriously, who cares...I always yell at Nina for being anorexic anyways... I like eating and I like sitting around and not having to remember to go to the gym so I can look good for no one. That can wait for college.

As for that bubbly that follows me around, I do would like to be back in a bubbly, but I realize I still have the same anxiety that I had freshmen year. The chase and butterflies is nice, but when its getting closer and possibly, I panic and get scared. I should get that fixed before college hahaha I think being friends is good enough for me. Perhaps, in the summer I can tell him, but as long as I can hang out, I'm grateful.

Whatever, this is as good as it gets, and I will try to be happy. I love my ipod, my college, my friends, family and my doggiie and that's all that matters.

BACK

2010-01-04T01:40:00.000-08:00

SLowly will I now creep back into the depression and anxiety of routine life.

I need to go to college.

2009-12-21T00:48:00.001-08:00

Freakin aaaaaaaaaaa
I give up! There's no hope! GAHH I give up i give up i give up i give up i give up

LOSTTT CAUSEEEE

I don't like snails

2009-10-19T23:07:00.000-07:00

Every little thing I do for apps, I get happy afterwards because I'm just one little step closer. Two more weeks left and I'mm freakked out! Gosh you noe! Lan is dying right now with mid terms so I'm like omgg why am I applying for a place I'm going to die in.

I love Lykke Li and Phoenix...just love love love love them.

I spread myself tooo thin. I need to focuss. Now that HC is over, I must have no distractions. I can't help it; I just get creeped out by snails. It's not like they don't do anything bad to me. They recycle dead things into beautiful life. But if they touch me, I get grossed out. So don't blame me. I shouldn't have taken a snail in as a pet. I let it die and now I'm a bad person. But I don't regret not touching it, I just regret taking it in as pet. Seee! I make such bad mistakes.

I fail..... I miss NYC. It was so nice to just walk around with no worries in the world. I miss life.

Porque?

2009-09-22T22:48:00.000-07:00

Why is everything have to be so difficult?
Can't we just leave things be?

Why am I so stressed?
College APPPS! SATs!
GRADES! CLUBS!
Its too much to handle.
On top of that, why must we make something that isnt even important such a big deal? Can't we just relax and decide later? Why must we decide now? Can't life just be simpler? Gosh I wish it was January. I feel like the only way I can get out of this alive is I just focus on that one thing. I know months from now, I'll regret worrying too much. But I can't help it! Its my future! Opportunity cost, if I'm doing something else, I'm not doing the other thing that I should be doing.

simmered down

2009-08-29T15:12:00.000-07:00

Ok....maybe I was too enraged last time....I will to simmer down now...four more days of summer left....gahh

New Pet Peeve :(

2009-08-27T22:37:00.000-07:00

Most people know I have many pet peeves including intentional burping, hanging up on someone, being late, constant short jokes but I have discovered a new one.....texting!
Don't get me wrong, texting is soo convenient for planning hang outs, short conversations to avoid awkward ones on the phone, short quick ways to see what's happening with someone when you're bored, in class or between activities. It is awesome!

But excessive texting is quite annoying.... like seriously like realllyyyy SERIOUSLY! Is it necessary that you must answer every freaking text you get? Is it really necessary to interrupt a real conversation with a real person to answer a text by someone who isn't even there? I find it incredibly rude and an instant mood killer. It's like you can't think of anything to say to the person in front of you but some how you can carry on a conversation with someone who's not there. That's truly incredible. Especially when its like everyone texting someone at the same time, so you feel weird just sitting there staring at ppl text soo you take out your phone to see if anyone texted you. Is that completely pathetic or what? Especially when you leave your phone on vibration right in front of you....it vibrates and its obvious to everyone that you want to answer that text. WAY TO MAKE THINGS AWKWARD HUH? If you are that desperate to carry on that coversation through texting, why dont you just freaking ask that person to hang out with you. Ppl should realize that they are where they are with the person who took time to hang out with them and that's where their mind should be. I've tried to get use to it....but serioulsy like really? Are you really serious? Does it look like I want to stare at you text? I don't care if you're just a girl friend and its like a really chill hang out and you're texting to that guy you totally like, but wow way to show your friend who you care about more. Your replies can wait, its ok! Its not the end of the world. And the other person totally seem to be ok with it, but after text after text, they don't want to intrude and ask you what or who the text was from. But they get a feeling you'd rather be talking to that person. GoSSSHHHH Anyone who doesnt' have texting and can survive, I applaud you! Because at least, its more enjoyable to hang out with you.
But maybe that's just me. Maybe I actually want to have a good time with friends who actually want to be there. ALso, texting during a movie, its pretty obvious that you are and you're definately killing the movie for everyone.

Another thing...I haven't spoken to you that whole summer and the first thing you say to me is "cockblock"....way to kill my evening.. then after a few minutes of realizing you're a totally jerk for saying that to me, you text me again trying to pretend that comment was about something else and trying to make you seem not so much an ass, that's just really pathetic. You had a chance and screwed it up and that argument is between you two, don't ruin my evening by obviously making it seem that you're jealous.

But seirously?? seriouslyy????

BACK in the OC

2009-08-21T21:37:00.000-07:00

In less than two weeks, my wonderful summer will end and life will return back to the routine school days...that's pretty depressing

As beautiful and exciting NYC is, life is just soo much more simpler and relaxing in the OC...I guess I'm not a CITY Girl....Perhaps I will live in NYC if I lived in a nice flat in the Upper East Side but that's only if I'm a millionaire. For now, I decided I want a real campus with tons of grass area to study and tan in the sun and cute little shops for when I feel the urge to enjoy a nice cup of coffee or cupcake.

I also found out I'm not a plane person...6 hours on the plane everytime I want to go home and back will drive me crazy! I also learned how easily people will open up to you if you just start a simple conversation on the plane, subway or train...I think Yalies are the nicest people in the world.

I finally made my college list and I decided I'm not going to cut my hair until I get at least one acceptance letter from the list. I know it sounds pretty lame, but it'll be fun. Also, I miss being about to move my long locks to the side and being able to play with it.

Sadly, its not as grand as I thought it would be.

The WoOSLEY Statue is suppose to give me good luck for my application... Let's hope it does.

i only have 2 wisdom left.....

2009-08-06T00:01:00.001-07:00

Its AUGUST already...its quite sad.. one more month..
Yesterday, I finally cracked open my SAT book... I'm disappointed in myself for not cracking it open earlier, now I only have less than 2 months to study for the final exam...the one thing that might be the final factor in my college entrance into whateverrrr I apply to. Gah...I will now put on a facade and say that who cares about SATs..if a college doesnt accept me just for a test score, then it is not meant to be...but its such a lie lol.

I actually love my summer... I have been a lot more productive compare to last year lol my sister says that when you're in that "bubble" you don't realize it, but after you get out of that "bubble", you go "what the freak was I thinking?" hahahaha now i go, what the freak was i thinking? i wasted soo much timee last summer.... i mean i dont mind being in a bubble ...when when all you can think about is that bubble, or the bubble makes you frustrated and you forget about things outside the bubble or you loose your priorities and change into something that you despise in others or when you get out of that bubble, you feel depressed because you're not in that bubble again. but you know what i say? why does a girl need to be in a bubble in order to be happy huh? we're young and we have a whole life of bubbles waiting for us. why do we feel like just because someone is in a bubble, they have a life or they'er cool...well i say no to it! I will not feel bad about myself just because im not in a bubble. People constantly in bubbles will always feel the need to be in one all through their lives and will never be happy without being in one. Or maybe i'm just being a bit mean and judgemental hahahah. just my insight on bubbles.

Whatever...expectations and what is the norm. I look at myself and what I have achieved and its pretty cool. But what makes it cool is that I got my family to tell me its cool and i guess that's the point in what i've always tried to achieve. I want to meet ming tsai and jermaine and brett. that would be nice.

(500) Days of Summer

2009-07-28T10:29:00.000-07:00

After months of anticipation, I finally watched the darn film. Of course, I expected more...but I'm still absolutely in love with it, Tom Hansen and the portrayal of the relationship...It just made me want to start a relationship again despite knowing it would probably endddd tragically lol I will now look for my Tom.

Stanford

2009-07-21T21:46:00.000-07:00

Hard as a rock!

Look at me!

I could get use to this life.....art museum just 10 minutes away! :D

THREE WEEKS....

2009-07-05T22:08:00.000-07:00

Man...I just really love the SUMMER.....
But now that June is over and we only have TWO more MONTHS left in the summer, I must be productive....
I almost have 100 hours of community service at FVRH so Obamamamam will soon be hanging on my wall.
I went over the pre revolutionary art packet for decathlon sooo yayyy for me. It was tough forcing myself to sit for three hours.
I am going to NY and SF for suree! I'm going to visit the Metropolitan Museum and ask that my sister leave me there for the whole day bc seriously just want to spend the rest of my life in there.

Now I will study for the SAT and I promise to improve by 150 more points I can do it!
I decided, I'm just too lazy to go find a job...but I will eventually get one..I swear.

After the disappointing Thursday, I will give up my hopes for finding any summer anything....I will fall in love with 85's delicious fresh bread. yumm gives me goosebumps just thinking about it.

idea!

2009-06-18T22:27:00.000-07:00

I should get a planner for this year.

First week of summer was fun...

I forgot how slow Tales of Two Cities was.
Lan said my college essays were crap.
I have no money.
I now have the GAVEL!
I now know the under happenings.
Who will go see Harry Potter number 6 with me?

Very nice week eh?

What time is it?
DANCE TIME

SUMMER!

2009-06-12T22:04:00.000-07:00

I have been waiting for this day since August 30 2008....And it has finally come. I think my life has somewhat changed since the day I started school....and although I was very unhappy and mean this year, I am somewhat a better person now and have achieved a lot. :D I would write a whole entry about my whole year, but all the memories are mine and whoever reads have no interest it in it..... soooooo happy summer!

2 more weeks

2009-05-30T11:25:00.000-07:00

Yuppp two more weeks of hectic work left in our junior year. I'm stoked! Lan's coming home in two weeks too and will heal me while im laying on the couch drugged out for my four lost wisdom teeth :( i'm excited. for some reason i think i will be stronger after suffering with so much pain. However, CElia did take our her four teeth and she seemed the same to me afterwards.
Anyways, school is finally somewhat great now. My grades are somewhat secure. All my work has paid off for NHS and now I know for a fact, senior year will be awesome. It helps to be an amable likable person.
I found out transformers is a stupid movie. Iron man gone wrong. Sorry Shia...you were funny in it at least.
Also last week, I found out, no matter what you do, you can't solve the problems in the world. Everything has a consequence. If you fix one think, you're creating a problem for another. If you let Coasta Rica escape from poverty, you're killing the sharks. If you save the sharks, you're killing the money makers of Coasta Rica. Poverty? or Extinction? Probably save the sharks for me, but still you can't just say to people, we need to save the sharks, so you're going to have to starve for a while. It seems there's just no hope for perfect solutions.

I cant wait for summer....I decided no classes for me. I will focus on SATS on my OWN. I will try to find a job...probably not though. I will indulge in my stress breaker in unlimited time. Never ending painting, sewing, and crafts. LOVE IT! Visit Lan up in Stanford for two weeks and pretend to be a student there...AWESOME! Go to the Beach every FRIDAY...Work out every other day! You think I can do it? I will try.

4 mo months!

2009-05-14T18:59:00.000-07:00

woot! woo!t!

ppl have been wearing their pissy pants a lot these days :(

hooray

2009-05-05T19:25:00.001-07:00

i can already feel summer coming! :D

two more weeks

2009-05-01T21:10:00.000-07:00

exhausted

so worth it!

2009-04-26T21:49:00.000-07:00

That was soo worth waiting three months for....
worth waiting in 2 hours there for
worth getting my feet splashed with beer
worth killing my ears next to the speakers
worth dragging celia, raffi, and george from prom
worth looking pathetic in my summer dress while everyone dressed casually
worth yelling at the drunk lady next to me to shut up
worth having celia sit on top of me in raffi's beamer for absolutely no reason
worth putting my eyeliner and mascara only to look scary
worth having to put up with timmy's daily crap about how i'm wasting money RAWR!

it was the best night ever! i dont think i can ever happy unless i see matt costa again.

hrmm

2009-04-18T00:34:00.000-07:00

Maybe i was a bit too irrational in my last post...i guess its not that bad, but still i have succeeded in my personal oath :D i come off as cranky but its only because of my oath and possible annoying people. ive gotten through this rough week by listening to the Across the Universe sound track and as cheesy as the movie is, i want to watch it now lol.

i had my first real bowl of pho today and it was absolutely delicious. i now understand why ppl love it.

Crunch time!

MATT COSTA in a week...omg what will i say wen i meet him? what will i wear? omgomgomgomg

anger!!!!!

2009-04-14T23:22:00.000-07:00

someone just really knows how to piss me off! even if i was pmsing, i dont have to take that crap anymore. its gotten to the point where i prefer it if never they never talk to me again. i mean its ok to be annoying and insulting, but if they know im stressed out, and they still push it especially if they're a good friend, then theyer just being a jerk intentionally to piss me off. i wish i didnt owe anything to them and was able to cut all ties from them. I hate what you've become and what you made her into.

Monday morning

2009-03-30T01:42:00.000-07:00

Its 1:42 am and i haven't started studying for bio yet....fml :(
Probably the worst semester in the entire universe of my life.
But I did get to go shopping and bought jeans and new shoes woot woot
what motivates me? the idea that senior year is coming soon and this piece of crap of a year is over. My sister is in London in a tiny apartment right now but she gets to walk to work and drink tea with milk every morning. i should go back to studying now.

SPRING BREAK woot woot woot

whiissh

2009-02-22T23:53:00.000-08:00

i have made my third video this month and i am sick of it very much!
I hate how weekends are so short, but it has been fun...

when things are out of your grasp, it sucks bc you know you should just let it go, but then there's no alternative so you're left feeling sad lol el leonnnn
its time to let it gooo
i like boba more than frozen yogurt now

my sister and i had a whole convo about the goverment problems and economics soo i have a basic understanding of everything happeningg soo hopefully i can elaborate on it and look smart.

magic

2009-02-12T22:16:00.000-08:00

my love for art history and social studies once again never lets me down....i love you guys man! im totally gonna minor in art history in college and study abroad in Parisss...that would be the dream!

there was a guy from westminster high with the name "magic" as his middle name and kchen, dipto and i were cheering for him whenever he won a medal....magic is the best middle name anyone can have.

affirmative

2009-02-08T20:58:00.000-08:00

okkk....i just made two big decisions today.
I finally brought my Matt Costa Tickets so i'm definately going fo sooo

After calling my sister and planning my testing schedule, I registered for the Sat Test in March 14...i know i only have a month to study and with all these projects, i'm going to have to work super duper hard, but I 've no choice......I cant take the May one ebcause its right before ap testing gahhh five days day of non stop testing

studystudystudy

apathy

2009-02-05T19:57:00.000-08:00

I dont feel like doing anything today so i'm just going to post up pictures........
Raffi found a new sleeping location which has prevented me from fitting on my chair....

My desk is too small.....

I took a picture of my brother because I have to sit next to him everytime I do my homework...good thing he doesn't listen to annoying music :)

what a bad week.....When i found out my grades, i just wanted to stop working hardd.... so now im apathic and don't feel like doing anything....but that has caused me to fail my psych test and bio quiz so i'm back to my schedule...i just gotta pull through til ap testing...

fresh start

2009-01-31T23:44:00.001-08:00

first week of the semester.... so much hw! But it hasn't been that bad. I'm more relaxed and used to things. The first semester was probably the long long long longestttttttttt 4 monthssss of school in the world! But now its over and I can enjoy myself.l..not really... but I found a senior I can bother in spanish...I find it really fun to freak quiet people out, its just so fun!
I had my first day of decathlon competition today and it was nervewrecking! soo much pressure and the judges just look at you while you talkkkk and repeat yourself! Gahhh oh wellsss...it was a fun day overall....I realize i really suck at rock band, but I can sing reptilia and that's good enough for me. also formal wear + decathlon = cute preppy guys

its wierd, throughout the semester, i was expecting a B in spanish and that made me super sad and disappointed, but at the end, i got the grade. its wierd when you complain about a grade, you think when you get that A, you'll enjoy great bliss and pride, but then you get it, and its like wtf, its just a letter what was i stressing abbout? wtfff man i created wayyy too much worry and stress on myself this semester....i need to chill and be more optimistic.

man i keep hearing about people's experience in college and i really reallyy can't wait to go. i love pandora, i can type any indie artist i know and other artists like them will pop out and i love it! i also can't wait til July when my ultimate romantic indie movie comes out "500 days of summer" mann there's just soo much great things coming upppp this uncoming summer....possibly england, hopefully a job, andddd endless college apps.

Its Over!

2009-01-23T20:02:00.000-08:00

..

Yikes...it has truly been the longest week every! and now its over! I just wished I worked a little harder for spanish :( But no regrets! We must start a whole new semester that is probably going to be harder, but the 2nd semester has always been really fun and better compared to the first for me in the last two years so I'm just going to hope for the best.
Under dire circumstances, I went to the La Brea Tar Pits with Raffi on Monday. Who knew Los Angelos could be so fun to look at.

I took pictures from the car.

then on Tuesday, I went to UCI and I thought we fitted in real well. Maybe........

Alright I'm tired.

crash!!!

2009-01-17T00:17:00.000-08:00

I have had about a little more than four hours of sleep per day... and I should switch my bangs to my right again. Its annoying having to pull my bangs up and expose my giant forehead.
I should be a trancedentalist and be more optimistic...but there's no more point.
infatuations and hw are the same thing.... yuck!
- competition
- wasting time
- disappointment
- uncomprehensible
- distraction from important things

What faces? I love my faces! I shall have botox and turn my face into stone!
Celia tried to poison me ... I researched and I did have an allergic reaction!
omg home depot is sooo huge and it has likee crazy stuff! Caroline's inability to do things by herself forces me to go do little errands with her and if i dont... her reply is "you want to walk home?" some friend -_-

i have to study study study and this time i will not waste time
its 2009 and life is still the same why? i miss winter break...i was so happy... although i had to do bio everynight for a week, it was fun
i cant wait til break then i can paint like the expressionists
i got napoleon back and decorated my walls with posters. i covered my brother's walls with cathedral sketches so his side is the religious gothic period and mine is the expressionism period!

yummy!

2008-12-31T01:14:00.000-08:00

OMG ITS 1:14 IN THE WEE HOURS OF THE NIGHT AND GUESS WHAT? I FOUND MY HUSBAND AT LAST AND I AN ECSTATIC!
his name is SEUNG RI and he looks lovely in a suit and white tennis shoes with his hiphop dancing! crack crack crack and he's apart of big bang
i am soo freaking happy!

and i told nina this:

KWACK quack says (1:05:23 AM): you can have seung ri

KWACK quack says (1:05:28 AM): ck can have top

KWACK quack says (1:05:32 AM): and ill take g dragon

KWACK quack says (1:05:33 AM): yay!

KWACK quack says (1:05:40 AM): and we can all have pretty babies

hoaamaii (1:06:28 AM): man i will visit you wen you go to korea and i will accidently bump into seung ri

hoaamaii (1:06:40 AM): then he will fall in love with my humor

hoaamaii (1:06:46 AM): and we will live ever after

hoaamaii (1:06:51 AM): you can wash g dragon's clothes

KWACK quack says (1:12:12 AM): yours 18 in kroea

KWACK quack says (1:12:14 AM): and hes 20

hoaamaii (1:12:17 AM): nvm

KWACK quack says (1:12:20 AM): its only 2 year

hoaamaii (1:12:21 AM): i take it back

KWACK quack says (1:12:23 AM): SO?!

hoaamaii (1:12:29 AM): too old

KWACK quack says (1:12:33 AM): OMG

hoaamaii (1:12:34 AM): i dont like him anymore

KWACK quack says (1:12:43 AM): age is nothing a number

hoaamaii (1:12:47 AM): ok if you say so

KWACK quack says (1:12:47 AM): wow seirosuly

hoaamaii (1:12:50 AM): I LOVE HIM AGAIN

KWACK quack says (1:13:48 AM): ok fine

KWACK quack says (1:14:00 AM): now i HAVE to be all popularin kreoa now all cus of you

KWACK quack says (1:21:06 AM): fine

KWACK quack says (1:21:19 AM): if i get an award as Gs wife

KWACK quack says (1:21:29 AM): then i will thank especially HOA MAI on stage

yay nina will be successful in life just because of me! life is just splendid

xmas

2008-12-23T13:23:00.000-08:00

someone said that i didnt love anything but i doo...
I love....
1. Tin cans - you can put stuff in them and theyer soo cute
2. my ipod filled with regina spektor, pigeon detectives
3. Matt Costa with his 5 o'clock shadow
4. my doggy raffi
5. shopping
6. sewing stuff i dont wear
7. art drawings and postcards - its the best present one can give
8. solving a puzzle with my friend khang
9. getting stuck in newport at night with celia
10. waking up to the sound of rain
11. i love school breaks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Say What?

2008-12-15T23:49:00.001-08:00

You think you know? pullllleasseeee

gasp!

2008-12-11T16:55:00.000-08:00

Ahhhh darn it!

soo closee but everything is soo unstable i hate it, but i probably won't give up....failureee!
This week has been very interesting! I had a health day off which now i don't think i needed but whatevers! it was a nice day....

Tuesday...I went to the red cross candle lighting for world's aids dayy...the ride there was soo traffickyy and took forever but when we finally got there...we were able to light candles then afterwards enjoy dinner with jeopardy and nostalgia. when i get a car, i'm definately getting a gps system...it can speak dutschhh

I went to UCSD on Wednesday..it was very nice there; i like their tree library! this just makes me more excited to plan my future and visit colleges...

i hate how ppl think i work really hard...just bc i took wgh and art history class last year... there was an opportunity to get rid of my art requirement and i took it..it doesnt mean i try harder than the next person. all the pressure and expectations is bound to make me collaspe but just not yet. i still manage to find a little pleasure in my day. like for instance:

i love putting warn clothes on raffi..its adorable!

i love my two tv shows i am able to watch!

i love car rides on the freeway at night.

i think i bother to my apush teacher too much.

i love finding really good songs from indie bands, but i hate it when i get the whole album and there's only one good song. But i still love Ben Fold's "you dont know me"

i love texting

that's it for today!

Pressure.......

2008-12-05T22:48:00.000-08:00

9 hours left til the biggg test
1 week before mi hermana se volvera
2 weeks til school is over for the year!
> 3 weeks til JC's 2009th birthday
> 7 months til the horrid year ends

whatever happens! I will still go to college.

"danger! Danger has followed us home!
Watch out!
Tonight is danger baby, i feel so dangerous!"
i've been trying to send that song to my phone for a whole week but it still hasnt worked!

sighhh

2008-11-27T11:22:00.000-08:00

sighhhh!!!!!!!!!!!
another failed attempt at making cookies!
well at least if i dont become a cook, i can be a hairstylist or a clothes maker.. :D

"Don't sell yourself thin!"

estoy cocinando....

2008-11-25T12:01:00.000-08:00

I like cooking but I hate cleaning :( I find myself with the camera a lot these dayss and i take random pictures of myself. I want to go to New York and take a walk down Central park. It's going to rain today..maybe I should wear a scarf :D
Mi hermana is going to London for a year....I just need to find alguno dinero then I puedo viver mi dreams en la verana.

I have to remember that time goes by very fast and that most amistad that would seem to last forever would eventually end in disappointment. sighhh In saying that, I am so grateful for the friends I have now who take soo much crap from me, who share glances with me when we hear a sexual innuendo, and who i can sing and dance with in the car. I've been soo caught up on what I've been missing out, that I forgot to appreciate everyone that has kept me from going insane bc school. Graciousss Remember, the insults I give are juust signs of love.

bu-eno

2008-11-21T18:25:00.000-08:00

i love today! Life is good! sucking up to the teacher isnt as bad as i thought... hehehehe
psych...the longest conversation this week :D gosh i make a fool of myselfff...goshhhhhhh

never mind that! spanish yayyyy four points from getting an A come on! two more months leftt... i can do this!
English always makes me sad :(
NHS yay i had fun....talking and coloring and what not! i do have friends! haha that sounded soo pathetic.
scrimmage tomorrow...i think i might study tonight and paint my nails black as a good luck charm.. gosh five hours of testing....what do i set myself up for? im not sureee

watever..it will be all over

tightttt

2008-11-19T18:24:00.000-08:00

Wow..... I feel quite happy that I've been busy this week...that's sad huh? lol i've been going home at five everyday and trying to go to decathlon and nhs everyday. Very tiring and I'm soo sleepy.
Gosh i hate psych wtf man, i thought it was suppose to be fun....its not even hard, but her test are soo lame... nevertheless, i'm always excited to go to that class ;) hehehe but two different spheres can never combine :(

i cant wait til thanksgiving...the cooking..the warm feeling from making cookies and slicing pumpkin pie....yummy and better yett... studying for sats. yay! :(

gasp it worked...even though my life totally sucks, i can still be happy... a positive attitude goes a long way!

carefree

2008-11-14T17:12:00.001-08:00

I am noww carefree for the rest of this Friday lol....I guess I don't have that much hw this weekend...study for biooo and psych..but that's all! :D
I love the OFFICE! I love ANDY BARNARD! he just might be my favorite tv character of all timesss lol!

"Mademoiselle! Beer me dos Long Island iced teas, por favor. Bad decision in a glass." ( lol That's not french)
"You will thank me when they spank thee."
"I see through a hard exterior to a little jelly in the middle. (Angela totally doesnt deserve him!)

I don't like Dwight as much..but he said funny stuff tooo "What? Are there two suns? Uh, last I checked that's not an office in the Andromeda galaxy!"

hehehe i love fridays! i hate test :( soo weird today
I want to go shopping! For sun dresses! but i cant because its winter....i love winter! i love being cold and seeing the brown and orange leaves on the trees everday when i drive home. Im really going to miss it when spring and summer comes along. :(

gaggg

2008-11-12T18:03:00.000-08:00

argg its a wednesday..... :(
Thrusday: Math test
Friday: Math test, Spanish test, Apush Test, Bio quiz
Monday: Bio Test
Tuesday: Psych test

Saturday before Thanksgiving: Scrimmage!
Dec. 6 SATS

its never ending test taking for meeeeee.....

four day weekend!

2008-11-08T18:51:00.000-08:00

four day weekend! yayayaya bell game yesterday....sometimes its best not to talk about it.. :( at least i understand football a little moree...thanks to george.
this week was crazy though....the election was expected but still it was amazinggg.
okk progress is gonna come out and i will have three a's and three b's :( tragic but i will raise them up!

i forgot how much i love shopping! i love forever! i could spend hours in that store. i swear the two thing you can ever need are black pants and a cardigan. :D
the best thing to eat at 12 in the morning is curly fries or a lemon filled donut yummy.

i hate it how it seems like i take a lot of pictures of myself, but when it comes time that i do need a picture of myself, i cant seem to find a decent one. argggggggg

so many things are coming up soon! bigg eye bagss coming up! decathlon scrimmage! im so scared!

obamadrama

2008-11-05T17:42:00.000-08:00

hehehe
dodododoododo i hate school

so many possibilities!

2008-10-30T16:41:00.000-07:00

i have to say, i really like this week....it has been so eassyy kindaaa no major test and not a lot of failing well except that thing that i wont talk about cuz im still pissed but its in the past...gotta let it go!
i'm starting to let my imagination take a hold of mee...lol i didn't realize it this year, but i did found something to amuse myself with during class lol...maybe???? heheheheheh gigglegiggle "wow again" hehhee wanna share half a paper?

yesss got my spaninsh grade up to 85.7 just need 7 moore percent points to raise it to an A!!! i got 100% on the last two quizes soo im psycheddd! come onn..i'm going to work my butt off this quarter...too many b's already...my apush grade is an A again yess just gotta keep it that way! i got 15/15 on participation and i dont even remember how often i volunteered. wowowowo

i want to go to washington DC but i'm not even sure i'm gonna join the legal field gahhh i doubt it!

i have to say i just might not have a life....five days a week, i do non stop hw....on my weekends, i volunteer...wow need to get a social life and going to wendy's isnt considered one. i feel bad for not devoting myself to decathlon..i hate knowing MR. D is disappointed..i'll just stick around for now.

i've been listeing to frou frou, the wombats, and chairlifts this week...frou frou is not indie hippy at alll!
and so what if berkley is depressing.....its probably just a myth...the chances of me doing drugs is slim...i hope

i heart macs

2008-10-24T22:38:00.000-07:00

OMG i love my mac..i get to make cool pictures of myself and music videos....i love fridays...i went to the holy spirit church festival with nina after we finished the project...i really wanted to go on the swinging roller coaster, but nina said it wasnt worth four dollars soo i spent it on deep fried food yuck...but i did spend a dollar on a super cool balloon shaped as a lion. i went home and played with my computer with it...maybe i should drop school and become a self expressoion artist.

i really like this week! not that much bad news and no late hours studying......i dont care what everyone says, i love my hippy indie music.....im starting to like the wombats "lets stand for joy division" dododododododo let the love tear us apart, i found a cureee for a brokenn heart....let it tear us apartt....

i'm forming a greeat idea for a party during winter break.....its not really a party more like a social experiment. you noe those awkward work parties where no one really noes each other. everyone just walks around and mingle and eat cheese and wine. i really want to do that. I really want to give my guest a wierd identity ten years from now then for an hour, we try to figure out who everyone is without actually revealing who they are. maybe we can kill someone then try to figure out who the killer is ohhhh soo funnnnn!!!!!! i guess it depends on who would actually spend two hours doing that lol but i really want to do it!

hoa

i get a feeling deep down inside.....

2008-10-18T10:52:00.000-07:00

another unsucccessful week of school....i have a lower grade in spanish...i have a B now in apush! yeah i noe! i am determined to beat khang on the next one... two major projects due the following week and i havent even started! gahhh sometimes i just think about all the choices i make.....

i learned many things this week...
1. teachers arent as intimidating as they seem.
2. never expect to go home early if you're eating with caroline, raffi, and khang...just never never expect to go home to do hw. this is what i did instead of studying ------->
3. holly + micheal - mean jan = happy ending
4. never name your kid astrid
5. i'm really liking this duffy album
6. life is really against me because the only time the kooks are in the oc, their show is on the day before my english project is due.
7. its too dangerous to open up a crab shack in mexico cuz the chances of you being held as hostage is high.
8. never go to sleep early and expect to wake up at 4 to do hw. it will never happen.

:( life sucksss but its ok! its called delayed gratification <-----college?

enferma

2008-10-11T21:14:00.000-07:00

blah i'm sick! i wonder if i will be sick tomorrow and miss a day of school? should i? i hate making up work and miss a lecture. blahhhhhhhh at least raffi had fun today...i was very surprised how ppl liked her..

What to do.....

2008-10-10T15:43:00.001-07:00

Okk let's see so we have one more month til the end of the quarter...and three b's are staring right at me. This isnt good....Ok i will only settle for two b's this semester but after not doing so well on the psych test and spanish test....nothing is stable. gahh i wish la framboise would just tell us our grade already. i've been getting only like five hours of sleep everyday. this is not good for my skin or liver at all.

i made a pledge and i will stick with it! NO more! I will get a hair cut then perhaps, this insignificant change will = big change and i will improve. gahh life is so depressing, but not depressing enough to give up.

October.....

2008-10-01T23:00:00.000-07:00

Today was the first day of October....I have to say, this has been the longest month of my life! so many uneventful things have happen but I think somehow, my life has changed. I'm more pessimistic and mean...I'll try not to do that. I think I'm pretty nice though to people I don't really know. awww I hate it when I say stuff then like a day later, I totally regret saying it. I'm going to think before I say stuff. I don't have that much homework today, so that's a bit scary. I like going to decathlon now, maybe because we're looking over the art section..I really like art i guess...Historian? Curator? then I can look into the Da Vinci Code. Wouldn't it be awesome if I lived in Rome and everyday I would walk by a piece of art..that would be soo cool. I want to go to a museum very much. i dont like indigenous art though, its boring.

More things that piss me off. Why do people work at school when it is evident that they hate kids. I dont get it at all....how can you live with yourself working as something that anyone on the streets can do and be so mean to the students there.

I cant find the chairlift song to download :( Its been really hot these days.....but its really cold in the classes its bad for circulation. I really like the color green...its a good color especially when it has white added to it to make a different tint. I really like that.

Omg....I want to have a thanksgiving celebration at a pancake place. wouldnt that be swell? then we can share about what we're thankful for. I can't wait!

I think Jonahthon Edwards was crazy...how can anyone think that God can be that angry. I dont like reading that because its soo incorrecto.

I wish I can write poetry. Wouldn't that be swell?

I like it when Raffi is washed so she has nice white fur. then when she stands on her legs so you can scratch her...its the cutest thingggg.

I haven't been home on every friday of this september. weird huh? parttyyy

I see caroline too much...but it's a blessing in disguise.

I like the Vampire weekend...they make happy music.

okk that's all

more rawrs

2008-09-30T19:57:00.000-07:00

I have no idea why people are starting to bother me with just the little things. I wonder why I judge people so easily....maybe that means I'm just insecure with myself? Oh.. I will try not to judge ppl anymore...its good that they're weird. I feel like my intelligence is decreasing by the day.

I hate guys who intentionally are nicer to pretty girls and soo mean and inconsiderate to the other girls. It just shows how shallow and superficial they really are.

rawr

2008-09-28T15:41:00.000-07:00

i hate mean hospital cafeteria ladies on Sundays :(

lame...

2008-09-19T23:11:00.001-07:00

life sucksssss........there's never enough time to do anything anymore...I'm going to go crazy!

sighhh

2008-09-15T16:00:00.001-07:00

i think we have finally showed our true sad mature selves when instead of hanging out on reverse modified days like we would do last year, we go home to sleep and do hw. that's funny.

i love fridays

2008-09-12T22:56:00.000-07:00

Today was probably the best Friday I've had this school year hehehe. only one quiz...just lectures the whole day...awesome! i cant help but let my imagination go crazy these days. all the possibilities in the world.
..I walked Raffi around for a whole hour...then I went to the paper cutting party where we cut 1000 little flyers...and supposedly, i cant use the "unstable" excuse anymore because my friends seem to think that i'm just making things up..well i guess i am...but my theory is if you make a joke out of everything, it stops becoming a big deal anymore...
i love long car rides on the freeway at night.

oh i forgot, even if this year is super stressful, all you need is the perfect playlist...recent suggestions: Kate Nash "merry happy", vampire weekend "i stand corrected" aqualung "brighter than sunshine"

xoxox gg

2008-09-11T17:37:00.001-07:00

okk i realized that life can totally be like gossip girl......all i need now is a Lord Marcus....come on England!

how are you doing?

2008-09-10T15:27:00.000-07:00

what is that? doing what? Im hoa mai....I'm great!!!!! why do you ask? I'm doing what I always do.
it's happening less and less....I will succeed! I'm in the same situation as the beginning of last year: scared to death about school and once again, I don't want to go. gahhh why? nothing good will come out of going. I just really wish my options change in three weeks. :) its funny how from any sort of glance, my imagination interprets it into multiple scenarios...how funny.....
omg...for the first time in a thousand watevers...decathlon was funny. Mr. D is funny....ruby dress shirt...very nice......as i find myself listening to every word, yo me doy a cuenta mi maestro es much rico porque no ya canso? dododod raffi looks more like a poodle now awwww she also cant make babies anymore.....she wears a cone on her head its funny yet sad awwww
let's see what else has been buzzing in my headd.............gahhh i just really wish the outcome of this year is awesome! its really ironic, when i'm really starting to hate school and want to drop out to drive to mexico and open up my own crap shack, we end up writing an essay about how we should finish school.

darn you kooks!!!!!!!!! how dare you run out of tickets...<------- biggest disappointment ever!

2008-09-09T16:06:00.000-07:00

the first 7 hours at school is alright, but at the most random times even when i'm doing spanish or math homework, it gets to me. i really want to see the future because i want to see that everything that i am working for now might result into something good. i need change i hate uncertainty.

2008-09-08T17:33:00.001-07:00

everything will be a ok.

2008-09-06T23:27:00.001-07:00

rebirth cake today on my fake birthday....its good to know your friends will kidnap you and talk about foot longs at dinner.......me sinto cambia y libreeee

Genius!

2008-08-26T10:19:00.000-07:00

I fixed my stupid laser printer alll by myself !!!!!!!!!!!! yes me? fix something? Highlight of Monday!

End of Summer

2008-08-23T22:13:00.000-07:00

Well, as much as I am sad about the upcoming school year starting on Wednesday, I must force myself to look at the brightside.
1. I finished my part in decathlon and the outline. I finished Bless Me Ultima.
2. I finished fightclub. I might start on Crime and Punishment?
3. I finished apush and need to edit my essay.
4. I stayed up til 3 once? I think that's enough.
5. I slept in my tent but I didnt get much sleep cuz these really annoying gigantic bugs were making noise the whole night!
6. I have yet to finish a few pages of spanish.
7. SATs? maybe january lol
8 i did clean my room

high lights of my summer....
-first carwash I ever planned. It felt nice.
-living in the new house for the first three months while having the old house to stare at across the street.
- hospital and cafeteria food yumyum
- i love walking from the beach to the showers and drying as i get back.
- driving shot gun with caroline, nina, khang, and raffi driving.
- watching olympics late at night with sisters and rooting for the underdogs like cohe, fabian, young wei and of course ryan lochte
- dinner everyday with my family and debating over animal cruelty and other pointless crap

now everything is going to end and i have to spend all day at school and all night in my room studying. cant wait til thanksgiving break!

great disappointment...

2008-08-13T22:33:00.001-07:00

apush w/ Celia and Jeff :(
ap psych no body
pre cal billingsley let's hope not!
ap bio caroline, celia and i are going to be lab partners!
ap spanish nobody yet? :(
ap english caroline!

no class with kle and nina which i find really really really funny lol.
srry caroline for getting you in trouble with white old pmsing lady :(

i'm almost done with apush reading! now i must tackle spanish packet

2008-07-30T13:40:00.000-07:00

Yessss.....
I finished reading Fight Club!!!!!!!!! I don't get the ending though.
Yesterday I did another lesson from the stupid spanish website. Let's see what elseeee did I accomplish....yes that's it lol but at least I cross two things off the list.
Hoa

2008-07-24T18:53:00.000-07:00

OK!
I finished Bless Me Ultima. Yay let see what else...I'm 1/3 done with all the Decathlon reading packet...way to go Hoa! I read half the first chapter of US history yay! I want to go to the beach! Summer is ending!
I need sponges, towels, soap for the car wash....I need people too....most of all i need customers lol
sign life is soo disappointing

List.....

2008-07-17T20:08:00.000-07:00

Ok, I'm serious this time...no more wasting time!
By the end of the summer, I will...

1. Go through every SAT problem I can find as well as my lessons
2. Finish Decathlon work and Bless Me Ultima
3. Do at least 10 lessons in the stupid spanish website and finish the spanish packet.
4. Finish AP US Homework.
5. Finish Fight Club.
6. Stay up to 6 in the morning once.
7. Clean my room.
8. Attempt to make pasta.

that's all I can think of...I probably have more lol.

third day of summer

2008-06-15T14:37:00.000-07:00

so i find myself at the library again using their slow slow slow internet because installing internet in the new house is that complicated sighhhhhh......... let's seee last day of school was very tiring but its all good cuz once again i find myself in the same position as last semester and it feels pretty good :D
first day of summer...i ran errands <---- (my future son's name) and went to the krn market and brought melon bars gasppppp the melon bars have shrunken lammeeee then my sister and i brought a new grill and filled up a whole propane tank yesyesyesy that's how strong we are :D then i helped caroline climb a wall and amazingly, it took two guys to help her up...she's the same size as me tooo...i find that funny hahahah then bon fire...i'm surprised i stayed out as late.
then i spent saturday with my cousins and saw one of them get a french manicure and pedicure....so now before this summer ends, i will get one :D then i went to uci to see my sister's graduation ohh wat a surprise, the biology major ceremony was filled with asians. party afterwards and ended the night with my favorite person.
so now i find myself on a sunday afternoon at the library.....i have to look over my decathlon packet soon lamee...... ohh yay my little brother's middle school gradation is wednesday cant wait for the funfunfun.

Three more weeks.......

2008-05-22T19:44:00.001-07:00

its a week after ap testing and i still end up sleeping at 12.... :( when will it stop? it has been a good week though, amazingly i got historian for nhs...so that's cool and i made it to spanish four. yepp pretty much stable grades expect chem and maybe art, but the project is like 400 points so it wouldnt make such a big impact.
but i waste an hour in the last two days because these two crazy people can't just be happy for once. jeezeeee blahhh estoy cansado hehehe casado hehehe i like the weather these days its very cold just like the winter. i'm going to miss the winter when summer hits. i hate just sitting there and sweating for no reason. at least no lame tennis camp this year instead sat classes omg yay. gossip girl finale was a dissappointment and no more office! sniff sniff nothing to look forward to thursdays anymore. i need to start studying for chemistry soon hopefully i can get a c on this one again pleasee give me a C!!!!!!!!!
omg im gonna move in like a week, i should take pictures byebye house, i lived here all my childhood sniffsniff its gonna be crazy when we all go to college. our home stops becoming our home and our small dorm with our not so great room mate and the shared bathroom becomes our home. how sad....
i really want to see gothic cathedrals, theyer really huge and pretty and i want to see the ziggurat of ur too bad its in crazy iraq area :(

2008-04-20T20:06:00.000-07:00

Its been a chill weekend :D.....I went shopping on Friday and my sister had a gift certificate to Claim Jumper and that's probably the whitest restuarant...scary then i went home. On Saturday, i went to Bible then i went to study session for art and it was the longest thing in the world......then i ran errands with my mom...then i did hw then watched law and order and its sad cuz the only good episodes are from law and order svu and they are shown on tuesdays so i cant watch it....then i went to sleep. the next day i went church then i did five hours straight of art hw cuz i had procrastinated the previous days man my hand hurts..i hate modern art! then i went to retreat reunion..then now i am here! hahaha boring huh? yepp life sucks just cant wait til after the first two weeks of May then life is good.
let's see wat else ohhh lost is on this week, with office and gossip girl no way! yepp i cant think of anything let me go find a joke
Judge: Is there any reason you could not serve as a juror in this case? Juror: I don't want to be away from my job that long. Judge: Can't they do without you at work? Juror: Yes, but I don't want them to know it.

Thursday

2008-04-10T17:36:00.000-07:00

Well...surprisingly I had an overall good day. I forced myself to wake up at five to learn art. I got dropped off at Valley Vista and had to walk :( I got an extra credit point for doing a problem on the board for chem. I had a conversation with ppl around me in spanish yay! I was almost alleged guity by aquintances in euro and freakin fitz still cant pronounce my name. Math i finally didnt fall asleep. english was fun cuz all we did was watch the movie. i went to cyf, but had to go study for art. then took the exam...wasn't bad. probably got a B. wasnted an hour with nina and celia. went to study session for art and there was like only ten of us there and dude ap tests are like three hours long. 5 short essays, dbq, and 2 long essays :( we went through a bunch of slides and i knew them and got to scream out their names out loud and that's pretty cool cuz no juniors dont think im stupid :D now i have to study for math,euro,english :( OFFICE ON TODAY! NOW SOMETHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO EVERY WEEK!

2008-04-02T17:12:00.000-07:00

It's wednesday.....blah this week came with a sudden rush of work blahhhhhh i have a difficult math test tomorrow and i need to do well cuz Khang said i couldnt beat him :( then i have to study on thursday for a euro quiz :( too much is happening at onceeee i have to pack for my trip up to idyllwilddddddd i hope it'll be fun and life changing, but it probably wont. then i come back at 9 on SUnday and have to squeeze all of my homework. then i have an art exam on Wednesday about chapters i know nothing about. who really cares about Japanese, Chinese, Americas, and African art... lame.... ohh yeah spanish project. ohh ap tests are comingggg in a month and i havent brought my matt costa concert tickets gahhhhhh.
i also have this cough iono where and i changed my locker today its soo easy to change lockers wen there's soo many opened for use. i have to start homework now i'll write. lol armenian joke
two men were in a parking lot when suddenly one of them realizes they locked themselves out of their cars with their car keys inside. the first man wants to get a clothes hanger and unhook it by the window while the other man thinks he could use the hanger to twist the key hole. they bicker for hours until it starts to get cloudy. then one of them says let's hurry up, it's gonna start raining soon and i put down the roof of the convertable. ahahha funny armenian ppl have light skin tone, round faces, pointy noses, and are pudgyyyyy lol
i asked caroline what's the purpose of living if the stupid ppl have no passion for school and she said their purpose is to take up space. i think that's sad cuz not only are they taking up space, they're using up resources that are killing the earth. :o
hoa

?

2008-03-30T11:43:00.000-07:00

like o.m.g. i had a dream last night where the world was attacked by aliens and we were all little kids in school and when the aliens attacked we had to go to a shelter then i regrouped with celia and nina ( nina was a little boy i think) we walked around for no reason but i think we were looking for food. we went to the slums where we entered a really nice bar. the bar owner was depressed so celia took wine and persuaded him to help other people but he wouldnt. so we left and i kept stealing shoes cuz mine were uncomfortable. then we we throught a large park and the sky was dark blue and we saw a millionaire swimming with his girlfriend. then we went to the dirty, poverty stricken towns where tons of people were standing in water. we asked the people there why and they said that the people in water were desperate and were getting food from aliens. then we walked through gates and saw the millionaire swimming again. then we went to our neighborhood and we saw our dad. he gave us food and said he had to leave. then we met another guy and drove through another nieghborhood. then my sister woke me up for church. what a weird dream serioulsy, i never want it again like. it was like the most depressing dream i ever had. the mood was slow and depressing and everything about it made me really sad. it was exactly like war of the worlds, but i think i dreamt about it because i just read section 3 of euro about WWI and finished all quiet on the western front. jeezeeee

2008-03-29T18:14:00.000-07:00

hehehe i'm back again.........ok i should go do some math homework, but i finished my math puzzle so i was mucho happy :D

The beginning

2008-03-29T15:30:00.000-07:00

yayy i get to be those ppl who talk about absolutely nothing!