One month day and all that happened was an AP test...
I'm not one to form expectations but this kinda glums me out.
it's a good excuse to put our love to use babyyy I know what to do
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Friday, April 30, 2010
:I
Plan fail to the max and apparently everyone knows. FAILFAILFAILFAIL Oh wells, it's senior year and I frankly don't care (actually I do care hehehe but there's nothing I can do... besides, it's all worth it.)
Why do people get into fights? I used to think fights were always good in a relationship; it allowed feelings to be expressed and a stronger bond to form. But really, if you really cared about the relationship and if that person meant that much to you, you wouldn't want to make them go through crap for a fight that will eventually establish what is already obvious --- He does care about you. I tried being mad once, but after an hour, I realized my reason was really silly. Fights can immediately be resolved when you stop thinking about how you're hurting and more about what the other person is going through. You just have to be honest and understanding.
I guess I can suffer carrying bursted blood vessels around just for this.
Why do people get into fights? I used to think fights were always good in a relationship; it allowed feelings to be expressed and a stronger bond to form. But really, if you really cared about the relationship and if that person meant that much to you, you wouldn't want to make them go through crap for a fight that will eventually establish what is already obvious --- He does care about you. I tried being mad once, but after an hour, I realized my reason was really silly. Fights can immediately be resolved when you stop thinking about how you're hurting and more about what the other person is going through. You just have to be honest and understanding.
I guess I can suffer carrying bursted blood vessels around just for this.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
:(
A month ago, I couldn't wait for college to come. Now..not so much. I cringe just thinking about the good-bye.
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Saturday, March 13, 2010
wishhhh
I feel like something's going to happen and that wave of panic that has been hibernating is returning back to me. I can't stand it. GOD let me go to college to escape it.
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Contemplation...
Celia asked me, "Are you happy with yourself? What would you change?"
As much as I wanted to say something, I couldn't help but think that I'm what I pictured myself to be since Freshmen year. I mean, there's tons of stuff I want to change in the past, perhaps I should have made more friends instead of relying on the same three hoes all the time, but I still have time. My future is set and it's nice knowing. I would like to exercise and look good, but seriously, who cares...I always yell at Nina for being anorexic anyways... I like eating and I like sitting around and not having to remember to go to the gym so I can look good for no one. That can wait for college.
As for that bubbly that follows me around, I do would like to be back in a bubbly, but I realize I still have the same anxiety that I had freshmen year. The chase and butterflies is nice, but when its getting closer and possibly, I panic and get scared. I should get that fixed before college hahaha I think being friends is good enough for me. Perhaps, in the summer I can tell him, but as long as I can hang out, I'm grateful.
Whatever, this is as good as it gets, and I will try to be happy. I love my ipod, my college, my friends, family and my doggiie and that's all that matters.
As much as I wanted to say something, I couldn't help but think that I'm what I pictured myself to be since Freshmen year. I mean, there's tons of stuff I want to change in the past, perhaps I should have made more friends instead of relying on the same three hoes all the time, but I still have time. My future is set and it's nice knowing. I would like to exercise and look good, but seriously, who cares...I always yell at Nina for being anorexic anyways... I like eating and I like sitting around and not having to remember to go to the gym so I can look good for no one. That can wait for college.
As for that bubbly that follows me around, I do would like to be back in a bubbly, but I realize I still have the same anxiety that I had freshmen year. The chase and butterflies is nice, but when its getting closer and possibly, I panic and get scared. I should get that fixed before college hahaha I think being friends is good enough for me. Perhaps, in the summer I can tell him, but as long as I can hang out, I'm grateful.
Whatever, this is as good as it gets, and I will try to be happy. I love my ipod, my college, my friends, family and my doggiie and that's all that matters.
Monday, January 4, 2010
BACK
SLowly will I now creep back into the depression and anxiety of routine life.
I need to go to college.
I need to go to college.
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