i only have 2 wisdom left.....

Its AUGUST already...its quite sad.. one more month..
Yesterday, I finally cracked open my SAT book... I'm disappointed in myself for not cracking it open earlier, now I only have less than 2 months to study for the final exam...the one thing that might be the final factor in my college entrance into whateverrrr I apply to. Gah...I will now put on a facade and say that who cares about SATs..if a college doesnt accept me just for a test score, then it is not meant to be...but its such a lie lol.

I actually love my summer... I have been a lot more productive compare to last year lol my sister says that when you're in that "bubble" you don't realize it, but after you get out of that "bubble", you go "what the freak was I thinking?" hahahaha now i go, what the freak was i thinking? i wasted soo much timee last summer.... i mean i dont mind being in a bubble ...when when all you can think about is that bubble, or the bubble makes you frustrated and you forget about things outside the bubble or you loose your priorities and change into something that you despise in others or when you get out of that bubble, you feel depressed because you're not in that bubble again. but you know what i say? why does a girl need to be in a bubble in order to be happy huh? we're young and we have a whole life of bubbles waiting for us. why do we feel like just because someone is in a bubble, they have a life or they'er cool...well i say no to it! I will not feel bad about myself just because im not in a bubble. People constantly in bubbles will always feel the need to be in one all through their lives and will never be happy without being in one. Or maybe i'm just being a bit mean and judgemental hahahah. just my insight on bubbles.

Whatever...expectations and what is the norm. I look at myself and what I have achieved and its pretty cool. But what makes it cool is that I got my family to tell me its cool and i guess that's the point in what i've always tried to achieve. I want to meet ming tsai and jermaine and brett. that would be nice.